Monday, April 4, 2011 • 5:14 AM
I dun lyk the feeling of missing people thats why I hope you are missing me..
Yet I don't think such things will happen anymore.
Maybe you even hate me now..
How are things going at your side? I suppose everything is back to normal?
In 3 days.. the amount of things I want to tell you accumulated to mountains..
I want to tell you the things that happened in this 3 days..
About the interesting stuffs I've seen, experience I gone through. Yet you're already not there fer me to tell. I want to tell you the brilliant ice creams I've eaten, the clothes I buy and thought of wearing it fer our outings. I want to tell you funny experience I've made that I guess you will call me silly and stuffs. I really miss all of that from you..
Those bits and pieces are already choking me to say out. Yet its no use now.
I'm still trying very hard to bring myself to the fact. I don't know when I will wake up from this dream that you are no longer in my life.
Well.. pinching myself won't actually help. Maybe all I need is a slap from you to bring me back to my life.
The point is that I'm afraid of seeing you.
I'm afraid that I might just be that soft hearted to ask you to come back.. I might also remember how much I want to hold your hand and how badly I want to hug you that day.
I'm afraid to face you with a look that is easy for you to read.
I'm afraid that I would not want to leave you and ask you to come back fer me.
So the stupid me would rather let you go. Not changing a thing and letting you move on while I stay on the spot.
