Sunday, April 3, 2011 • 8:33 AM
I actually thank you fer asking me fer the hug. You actually read my mind to that. Even if we were to be back to what we actually are, that hug made me felt upset.
I'm starting to realise and come to the truth that i cant do what i want to you again. That feeling sucks to the core..
Days without messaging u actually made me feel empty. However if i started messaging you, it will feel very awkward. Its just a few days after that very day. I do not want to treat you like an enemy too. As you know, i rather have a friend than being enemies with you. I also do not cut off our relationship as friends.
Tears would brim my eyes whenever I think of you. Yet, I won't let them fall. Cause i need to be strong, I would fight them back.
Just like spilled milk that can't be consumed, I hope you would treasure your next one. Its best not to make the same mistakes as what you did to the milk. I know you can do that. Jiayous~
Seeing you walking back reluctantly.. I really hope you could come back to stop me. Yet to think again, things might not change fer the better. Instead of stabbing ourselves the second time, I saw your backview while you walk back. That slow speed that made you look like you aged a lot.. It made me feel really upset.
People that I told this to are actually blogger, my sister and one of my best mate and my gor in sch. Well, thanks fer cheering me up actually. Especially to my best mate. Bringing me to eat ice cream after that thing. She actually do not mind her outing to have me. Thanks gal!
Even though this thing isn't knowned to my parents, I can actually sense that they know what happened to me. My mother actually do not mind buying ice cream from Hagen Daz today. I actually was shocked yet happy.
Well, haven written a lot, I actually thank you fer appearing in my life. I do not regret anything. I believed I have sensed what it actually is. Thanks fer accomplishing one of my three wishes too.
